Alone in the hollow brightness

Please help! I am stuck in a dilemma, neither in studies nor in career, but to subdue the pain of migraine. I still remember the first time I had migraine when I was in form 3. It is actually a common type of headache yet it's very painful and annoying to me.

I feel a sense of emptiness this recently, I feel like avoiding this feeling but I discovered that its the feeling of lack or something missing that makes me feel uncomfortable in my life? I crave for chocolate, ice-cream, and cheese but they do not appear at my sight. I yearn for a completely healthy mind and body but the painful headache/migraine run on my mind, same goes to my phobia, I hate you all. ): Whenever I need you, but where are you? )':

To be continued......

Kahmun.

The life and feelings

I don't know why, I've been feeling very down and depressed , it started about 2 weeks ago until now. I thought having depression or feeling down from time to time is a very normal part of our life, but the feeling isn't right to me because I had a thought of don't wanna live anymore, SHIT? Please don't tell me on how to survive. =/ FOREVER ALONE!

Damn, the phobia has really made me into a horrible person, I hate it? ): I can't sleep, I've been suffering from insomnia, I am really suffering you know! You've been disappeared yourself for almost 2 months and why you're turning back to attack me again? )': SOB!

So, it ended up with fever, caught a cold, sore throat, coughing and whatsover! )':

Sorry for telling that. ):

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Yesterday I went to the Sunny Beach Cafe where I used to be on lunch with my schoolmates last time, it's been 2 years since I've been there, so I was paying my first visit right after I've left my high school. Those fun and joys with my schoolmates had made an indelible vivid memories on my mind. It's impossible to forget such memorable moment in my life. (:

This time, I tagged along with Vinze - my high school and also my University senior. (:

Well, the quality of food and beverages still remains good though, and it still remains a very popular restaurant to students, workers, and other customers. Maybe it's the location, good atmosphere, and decorations that people enjoy. (:

The menu.
A plate of pasta with spicy sauce.
A plate of pasta with tomato sauce.
A bowl of mushroom soup.
A glass of mint shake.

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On 2nd of November, I went to Maluri Jusco with my parents. No idea, they were making promotions and discounts in J-card Member Day. I've bought 3 file holders and inner wears with 50-70% discounts. No wonder people were thirsting for hunting piece!

Well, I had a cup of signature hot chocolate at Starbucks.

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On 4th of November, we went to Paragon Thai Village for dinner.

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This is 南瓜算盘子。Errrr..... =9

P/S: Please don't remind me on how to survive.

Joys and fun

The picture is taken from 10th floor at Berjaya Time Square! LAUGH OUT LOUD! =D
The picture is taken from 10th floor at Berjaya Time Square! LAUGH OUT LOUD! =D
My favourite cookies- Famous Amos ' s chocolate chip cookies! =9 DROOLED OVER THE FOOD. =9
It's the best recommended to you all- vegetable pizza. There were brocolli, bell peppers, carrots, and also cheese on top! =9
A plate of mushroom mee with a big cabbage, and also abalone slices!
"Tou fu hua" - beancurd jelly with sugar syrup, it is one of the popular chinese dessert eaten hot or cold. Well, it warmed my stomach especially when there was raining outside. (:

Profound thought

Yeah, since I am on holiday, I have completely cleaned my room , by getting a piece of wet cloth to wipe down my dusty desk, bookshelf, and drawer. To be frank, they were really full of dust, its been two months since I didn't clean them. Also, I changed my bed sheet, rearranged my paper works and books, and mopped the floor. Well, I bet all of you prefer things to be cleaned, right?

This week I will be spending my time with my friends and also family, at last I've a few days of deep relaxation. It's better to spend time in resting and enjoying myself as much as possible before a new chapter of life begins. I feel like playing bowling, archery, rock climbing, and... my favourite sport - cycling. Right, I've missed my bike so much. Thought of buying a new bike after a period of time then. =)

I am going to get a cell phone. Nope, its a smartphone, since I've some extra savings. Besides, I planned to work part-time start from next month onward. Hopefully I could learn something new from it. It's wise to begin with a plan! (: Dear self, all the best.

I will be starting the second semester on January 2012. There will be much more challenges later on, for sure. It's never too late to start off with a positive thinking. Let's beat it calmly! (:

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Some thoughts...some memories...some sadness...they will be last forever in my heart, and also in my mind too. If you still remember what was happening for the past year, I've been struggling for almost a year, it isn't easy at all, I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles. Yet, I have becoming stronger and stronger! It goes successfully! (:

You have taught me a valuable lesson...you've been said: " the society teaches me to be harsh, I give you time but please don't take it for granted. " I finally realized that what were you meant to be.

If I kept trying my best to provide value and cares for you, you would do things that showed that you didn't completely recognise about my carings, you would leave me wondering what you were thinking about. Why are you not recognizing the good intent I had in mind?

If I am deciding to give you up, am I the person to be blamed? I think you should know, who is the one doesn't even cherish the one who loves you very much.

Sorry that I loved you. (:

Thank you!

By: kahmun (:

Life is like riding a bicycle

Hey, peeps. It's been one month since I didn't update to you guys. I can't describe how packed is my lectures' time table and also my own timetable. Well, I've finished the first semester and right now I have 2 months holidays to take breath and chill out somewhere. Also, I become more familiar with my new studying environment, and I adapted quickly to it. Moreover, I have got a lot of new friends who are from different countries and life-styles, and also the knowledge and experiences I got from the course, and now my mind becomes a lil bit wider and large. Yet, it is stronger! (:

And yeah, I've just finished my exam today! Hopefully the results would turn out to be pretty good. (:

In my first semester's subject- Circuit Theory I. I have learned on how to construct a simple circuit with a breadboard. In addition, I have studied different types of theories of circuit in order to calculate the voltage, current, resistance, and so on.

That was my lab project with DC power supply from the lab. Tested by a LED.

That was my assignment. Battery is replaced with the DC power supply, tested by a LED.

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On 13th of October 2011. That day was my born-day and turned out to be 19 years old girl! Also, I was very surprised and touched when my friends brought in a chocolate cake into the classroom once the tutorial is being dismissed. They sang me a birthday song as well, and took a lot of pictures. I never expected such a great birthday party they have arranged for me, although it wasn't very grandly, but full of passionate and kindness. I would very much appreciate it.

My friends and I.

That was the chocolate cake they bought for me.

A birthday surprise from my parents, they have bought me a white chocolate cake with fruits on top. The cake is called "Fruits Garden". WOW, I love it. It tasted very delicious to me as well. Thanks daddy and mommy. (:

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In the end of September, I went to The Mines to relax myself, I enjoyed wandering around the shopping mall and looking at the people...the crowd...(:

And...I've tried something new! CREAMY MUSHROOM SOUP WITH BREAD BOWL! =9

At....the espresSOUP. Oops, I am not trying to promote the small cafe. HAHA!

P/S: Life goes on! (:

Study life (I)

Day by day, life is getting busy, in work place or study place. Indeed, life is becoming more and more challenging.

I really have no idea about how fast the lesson is flowing. I am doing short semester which is until the end of October this year. I have got the exam time table for the final exam today, it has shocked me a little bit but what can I do is try to catch up all the lessons within one month. It's extremely rushed, and I study in a very fast pace.

Calculus & Geometry II isn't an easy subject, even if you're good in maths too. It does require a very hard work and a strong will to learn and study. I will just endeavour to try my best. That's all.

Lecture has taught me a lesson between studying for the sake of passing the examinations and studying for the sake of life. If you keep memorizing the topic just because of the examinations, then you wouldn't gain the knowledge as what you have learned. It's better to learn and gain the knowledge in order to apply the gained knowledge both at academic institutions and in a modern society.

I am story to bore you with my story...

Besides, I have got to know some new friends from there. They are awesome and smart enough. Yet, they are friendly too. I am glad to know them , and hopefully a good friendship will be developed as soon as possible.

Instead, lecturers are experienced and dedicated with years of teaching, I like them ! (:

P/S: To be continued...

The new study place

It's been one week I studied at UCSI University North Wing, whereas the South Wing is the headquarter of UCSI.

I think I should learn how to adapt to a new study place immediately, it seemed very strange the first time I met them -- my coursemates. Besides, in engineering and architecture courses, there are a lot of international friends came to Malaysia for studying, this is what I have noticed in the past few days. Through conversation, they come from Indonesia, Myanmar, Iraq, and much more. Indeed, we have different family backgrounds, cultural, languages, lifestyles, and so on. (:

I drive to University every morning, the parking fees are RM 3 in the first 3 hours, and RM 4 after 3 hours. That's very costly to me.

I take 2 subjects in this semester, because every September we are compulsory to take a short semester which is until the end of October. So, we would have 2 months of holidays on November and December.

The first subject is Calculus and Geometry II, its kinda harder than A levels Math, we solve 3D integration. This shouldn't be a problem to me since last time I was practiced to do maths until thrown up? xD The second subject is circuit theory, its more in physics, basic concept must be strong in order to proceed to the hardest topics. Moreover, we were assigned to do a group assignment and lab project. Next month we will have presentation, midterm, and final exam. (:

Well, I will be very busy soon. (: