The reflections of 2011

How time flies, tomorrow is a brand new day, it's not more than 24 hours to go and year 2012 is going to replace with year 2011.

In 2011, there are a lot of ups and downs, as I trudged up the hill, laden with supplies. It was a tiring walk although I walked slowly the last day to 2012, 365 days are completed ! Every step was heavy as it required a huge amount of strength and wills.

The first 6 months were stressful and troubled.

"I was out of control as I fell into a deep hole in the ground from which people obtain water, the sides of wells are covered with barbed brick and there was a covering at the top of the well. I.......almost get drowned at the well".

The world is messed up.......messed up.......as I felt like doomsday is approaching me...

I did feel helpless to overcome the stressful and miserable life. Exam was damn hard and finally I managed to do it well, and I graduated my pre-U life. I felt everything was a hardship for me. Man-made factor? Environment factor? Think too much?

In half of the year, life has taught me a lot, do not let the sadness of your past or the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present, and there's a solution in every problem. Build a bridge of hope on a sea of despair! (:

Once I started my Uni life in September, only I realized that there are actually the same, burden doubles up, lessons are double harder, people are kinda fake, so I'd rather be thankful of my life no matter what the situation is...

I learn that life is a book.

P/S: Happy 2012, people. (:

kahmun

The life and feelings

I don't know why, I've been feeling very down and depressed , it started about 2 weeks ago until now. I thought having depression or feeling down from time to time is a very normal part of our life, but the feeling isn't right to me because I had a thought of don't wanna live anymore, SHIT? Please don't tell me on how to survive. =/ FOREVER ALONE!

Damn, the phobia has really made me into a horrible person, I hate it? ): I can't sleep, I've been suffering from insomnia, I am really suffering you know! You've been disappeared yourself for almost 2 months and why you're turning back to attack me again? )': SOB!

So, it ended up with fever, caught a cold, sore throat, coughing and whatsover! )':

Sorry for telling that. ):

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Yesterday I went to the Sunny Beach Cafe where I used to be on lunch with my schoolmates last time, it's been 2 years since I've been there, so I was paying my first visit right after I've left my high school. Those fun and joys with my schoolmates had made an indelible vivid memories on my mind. It's impossible to forget such memorable moment in my life. (:

This time, I tagged along with Vinze - my high school and also my University senior. (:

Well, the quality of food and beverages still remains good though, and it still remains a very popular restaurant to students, workers, and other customers. Maybe it's the location, good atmosphere, and decorations that people enjoy. (:

The menu.
A plate of pasta with spicy sauce.
A plate of pasta with tomato sauce.
A bowl of mushroom soup.
A glass of mint shake.

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On 2nd of November, I went to Maluri Jusco with my parents. No idea, they were making promotions and discounts in J-card Member Day. I've bought 3 file holders and inner wears with 50-70% discounts. No wonder people were thirsting for hunting piece!

Well, I had a cup of signature hot chocolate at Starbucks.

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On 4th of November, we went to Paragon Thai Village for dinner.

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This is 南瓜算盘子。Errrr..... =9

P/S: Please don't remind me on how to survive.

Profound thought

Yeah, since I am on holiday, I have completely cleaned my room , by getting a piece of wet cloth to wipe down my dusty desk, bookshelf, and drawer. To be frank, they were really full of dust, its been two months since I didn't clean them. Also, I changed my bed sheet, rearranged my paper works and books, and mopped the floor. Well, I bet all of you prefer things to be cleaned, right?

This week I will be spending my time with my friends and also family, at last I've a few days of deep relaxation. It's better to spend time in resting and enjoying myself as much as possible before a new chapter of life begins. I feel like playing bowling, archery, rock climbing, and... my favourite sport - cycling. Right, I've missed my bike so much. Thought of buying a new bike after a period of time then. =)

I am going to get a cell phone. Nope, its a smartphone, since I've some extra savings. Besides, I planned to work part-time start from next month onward. Hopefully I could learn something new from it. It's wise to begin with a plan! (: Dear self, all the best.

I will be starting the second semester on January 2012. There will be much more challenges later on, for sure. It's never too late to start off with a positive thinking. Let's beat it calmly! (:

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Some thoughts...some memories...some sadness...they will be last forever in my heart, and also in my mind too. If you still remember what was happening for the past year, I've been struggling for almost a year, it isn't easy at all, I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles. Yet, I have becoming stronger and stronger! It goes successfully! (:

You have taught me a valuable lesson...you've been said: " the society teaches me to be harsh, I give you time but please don't take it for granted. " I finally realized that what were you meant to be.

If I kept trying my best to provide value and cares for you, you would do things that showed that you didn't completely recognise about my carings, you would leave me wondering what you were thinking about. Why are you not recognizing the good intent I had in mind?

If I am deciding to give you up, am I the person to be blamed? I think you should know, who is the one doesn't even cherish the one who loves you very much.

Sorry that I loved you. (:

Thank you!

By: kahmun (:

Life is like riding a bicycle

Hey, peeps. It's been one month since I didn't update to you guys. I can't describe how packed is my lectures' time table and also my own timetable. Well, I've finished the first semester and right now I have 2 months holidays to take breath and chill out somewhere. Also, I become more familiar with my new studying environment, and I adapted quickly to it. Moreover, I have got a lot of new friends who are from different countries and life-styles, and also the knowledge and experiences I got from the course, and now my mind becomes a lil bit wider and large. Yet, it is stronger! (:

And yeah, I've just finished my exam today! Hopefully the results would turn out to be pretty good. (:

In my first semester's subject- Circuit Theory I. I have learned on how to construct a simple circuit with a breadboard. In addition, I have studied different types of theories of circuit in order to calculate the voltage, current, resistance, and so on.

That was my lab project with DC power supply from the lab. Tested by a LED.

That was my assignment. Battery is replaced with the DC power supply, tested by a LED.

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On 13th of October 2011. That day was my born-day and turned out to be 19 years old girl! Also, I was very surprised and touched when my friends brought in a chocolate cake into the classroom once the tutorial is being dismissed. They sang me a birthday song as well, and took a lot of pictures. I never expected such a great birthday party they have arranged for me, although it wasn't very grandly, but full of passionate and kindness. I would very much appreciate it.

My friends and I.

That was the chocolate cake they bought for me.

A birthday surprise from my parents, they have bought me a white chocolate cake with fruits on top. The cake is called "Fruits Garden". WOW, I love it. It tasted very delicious to me as well. Thanks daddy and mommy. (:

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In the end of September, I went to The Mines to relax myself, I enjoyed wandering around the shopping mall and looking at the people...the crowd...(:

And...I've tried something new! CREAMY MUSHROOM SOUP WITH BREAD BOWL! =9

At....the espresSOUP. Oops, I am not trying to promote the small cafe. HAHA!

P/S: Life goes on! (:

It's September again

Let me entice you with some news. I will be getting my degree by next Monday, I've just fully recovered from removing the blood clots in my uterus, and I do feel much more better by tuning up my body with Chinese medicine. I prefer Chinese Medicine the most, this is because it's all made from natural ingredient. My holidays are going to end soon, it is a torture of doing a lot of assignments and prepare for examination again, as what I did in my A level. (:

*Stopping my crap*

I've got a conditional letter of offer from UCSI University as shown as below. I will be doing B.Eng (Hons) in Mechatronic Engineering programme. People think I am crazy, and commented this degree isn't easily at all, even some of them said I am the special one. Well, I chose it according to my Pre-U results, I am interested in every course but I must have to choose one! Besides, I do like Physics very much. (:



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It's a mess when you're going to apply for PTPTN Loan. I am the one who is processing the first step here, and preparing all the documents to be certified. Firstly, I went to "Bank Simpanan Nasional" for buying a PIN number for online application, then I went to CIMB Bank again to open a saving account, and get an ATM Card. You know the staffs took me 2 hours for opening a new saving account, was it too exaggerate? They even skipped my turn and asked me to wait, what the terrible and lousy customer services they've offered me!

Shit, I feel like scolding them so badly. It's okay then, dear self, let's chill! (:

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P/S: Life is going on! (:

Malaysia public holidays

I am hereby wishing all the Muslim friends, Selamat Hari Raya! (:

Today was a sunny day and not a cloud was in the sky, I woke up a bit late this morning (about 10am) as I had an insomnia last night, it's been a few days since I didn't have an insomnia, perhaps I should do something to avoid it.

I suggested to bring my parents to have breakfast in Restauran Lim Kee Pan Mee at Taman Taynton, which my family and I have been visiting there for countless times. I prefer eating the pan mee at there, the noodles was very smooth and chewy, and of course, the soup was deeply flavorful which they have put a lot of fresh ingredients to cook it. I bet you would feel like drinking all the soup. There were "ikan bilis", minced pork, vegetable, and mushroom as side dishes. There are two types of noodles, round or flat mee, but I prefer flat mee. It was very tasty!

( I will be taking the foods' picture next time when I pay a visit there)

Furthermore, they do serve pork mee, dumpling, and curry mee. But, curry mee is served during public holidays only! Honestly, it was my first time to taste the curry mee at there. (:



I prefer eating curry mee too but I don't often eat it, this is because it contains high amount of fats in a bowl. The curry soup was flavorful too as they have added coconut milk, the chicken and clam meat were juicy and fresh, there were long bean ,bean sprouts, and fried bean curd. It tasted not bad. Small portion of a bowl but it looked bigger. Moreover, the price was fair too. (:

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After that, my parents and I went to The Mines. We roamed all around there, eating snacks while walking and talking craps. I felt warm by spending time with my parents, its a nature feeling which I never have with my friends.



It's been a long time since I didn't take a cup of coffee. We stopped at Restaurant Oldtown White Coffee. I have ordered a cup of mocha with white coffee, whereas my parents have ordered a cup of traditional Oldtown white coffee. SMILE. (:

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I normally have my eye sight testing in an optical shop at The Mines, the purpose of going to The Mines today was ordering a new pair of spectacle before my degree is started. (: Firstly I was having my eye sight testing with a special equipment called Auto Refractometer , after that I was assigned to have trial frame for refraction. I am glad that my eyes' power and axis are still remained the same. I have ordered two spectacles, one is with frame, another one is without frame. I look great with both spectacles. =D ( Picture will be capturing soon )

P/S: Happy Holidays to all non-Muslims. (:

A new chapter in my life begins

One chapter ends, a new one begins...

I got my A level results by last Thursday, "Thanks God"...the first two words were being whispered out from my mouth. At least, the results were not too bad, moderately and I didn't get a straight As. But all my efforts has paid off. Sometimes, we...humans don't be too greedy because something that we expected might not benefit to us. Health is the only wealth to us. Right?

The week before the results day, I had received an envelope from my house's mailbox, there were two invitation cards and two response slips. It was about the Graduation Day 2011 which falls on this coming Friday. By the way, I haven't prepared for it at all. Let the nature takes its course.

Well, about my further education, I think my parents' advices are right, I should get enough sleep and rest in order to maintain my good health at this moment. Therefore, I would like to pursue my education by next year January. And I would probably have starting to work temporarily by next month for gaining some work experiences. Hmmm, I feel like going to work with my friend at Midvalley! (:

Dear self, all the best. (:
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In the past few weeks before the 4th of August, until now, I've had a full body medical check-up. Firstly was blood testing, I am so glad that the blood report was greatly perfect. Moreover, I've took ultrasound scans for liver and kidney and they seemed very well, but a tumor was discovered right inside my ovary but it was actually a blood clots. By now the blood clots was being killed and passed out during my periods. (:

In the third week of August, I've took MRI scans for brains, eyes, and nose to discover whether is there any potential problems within the body. By last night I was conducted Electrocardiogram (ECG) for my heart. All the results were perfect but MRI image showed that my left nose were being blocked due to the nose allergy. ): This is one of the factor which causing me to suffer from migraine in sometimes.
It's time to find the best solution to prevent the allergies reaction to be happened.

Dear self, be strong. (:

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I watch KBS Music Bank every Friday and JK Hits every weekday. Any latest Korean Songs or previous ones are broadcasting on the Korean channel. Mr Simple by Super Junior is the best recommended for this month. I like it very much. (:

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I can't wait for the festival to come. Mooncake Festival is just around the corner.
My childhood is keep playing on my mind especially during the moment of Mooncake Festival, I still remember that I lighted three boxes of candles in the whole night, watched until all the candles were melted and vaporized a small amount of fuel. By now I could only use my mind to sense the atmosphere of Mooncake Festival, along with my friends and family (:

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P/S: Life is going on. (:

Recent Updates

Well, I am still going on my holidays, but just wanted to say that I am rotting at home? Nope,I am actually chilling out with friends and family every week, looking for delicious foods, drinking tea, chit-chatting, window shopping, walking all around the town, capturing photos, and much more! Yeah, I like it, but I've been wanting my University life so badly, the hopes of getting more training and knowledge and the yearning of learning from my degree, so I've told myself, just 4 more years for my degree level! 4 MORE YEARS! =)

By the way I haven't applied to any University yet, because it's all depends on my result. The result day will be on 18th of August, the date sounds so nice, but I feel so nervous when the result is given out! I will either apply to UCSI University or University of Nottingham for Chemical Engineering, both of the intakes will be on September, but UON requires a better result compared to the UCSI one! (:

Honestly, I sleep much during holiday, I take at least 10 hours of sleep every day and few hours of napping unless I gotta go for an outing. But sometimes I really can't sleep well due to the weather or abruptly wake up during the midnight. I would have trouble falling asleep too at bedtime. Hope to get well soon. I had took herbal soup and tonic in the past few days, million thanks to my mother who always look after me. It's time to take care more of myself. (:

I get bored easily when I am alone at home, most of the time I watch drama and listen to musics. Moreover, I have written several pieces of poetry, and I have posted them to my Facebook and Blogger, there will be another piece posting out soon, hope you guys will like it. (:


"No matter how sad you are, you deserve to wear a smile on your face, and also in your heart, just because of who you are."
The photo of this month. (:

P/S: Happy Holiday!

The recent of my life

It's today and believe it or not,its March! There are 10 months left for 2011 !

To my happy blog,from now onwards,you will be filled with my happiness, sadness, successes ,failures, and challenges moments.

Since I graduated high school,I found that my life isn't always smooth and fine. Perhaps I think so much again? Unlike last time,school life was slightly tough for me. In the present,it is extremely tough,so is that a REAL HUMAN LIFE? Without my expectation,there will be some frustrations and depressions all around my life. Some unsolved problems and cases could make my life unbalanced,but they seem able to digest and mature my thoughts. It most definitely changed my mind,I will become more mature! (:

I am here to advice myself that "It's time to accept the Goods and the Bads",girl.

As usual,I woke up with morning mood and drove off to my college,today I put "2000 bucks" into my pocket,at the same time I bewared of any snatch thief when I was heading to college. Phew,at last I have paid for the June 2011 examination fees. It is the last examination for my A levels. Hopefully I could make it better! (:
Confidence -80%

I recently busy with a tonne of assignments and revision. Qualifying exam is coming soon by next week,I really feel exhaust to catch up assignments and revision at the same time! I yearn for a relaxed pace but....screwed up! Time is short! I am still worry if I have high blood pressure. "I am still alive,don't worry man" =.=
When I think about Maths now,I'd have a phobia for it. >.> It seems 1 week 1 chapter,I feel tired to catch up! Biology,Chemistry,and physic,three more burdens man! LOL. Now I can taste the "A2 level" life,last for only 3 months. =D Don't think so much,do my best,and everything will be okay!

About studying at oversea,I think I will let it be! I asked myself again and again,I actually love Australia and I wish it would be my study place,it is best and learn to be independent. But when come to my health and safety,I think I must have to protect myself from any situation..(: I miss the chance to study at there,but I can have a visit to there next time! (: So,stay at KL is my final answer,hmmmm? Not bad!

I miss him again,its been almost 3 months we are seperated. When comes to his silence to me, I will stun, I will scratch my head deeply, I actually understand and know everything! I love and care about him. I have no regret. And I am learning to be SECURE,and step forward. What to do? (:

P/S: second LIFE...

Fringe cut?

A cloudy day,cloudy mood.
I seem acquired a cloud above my head that is affecting my mood,I ate my lunch slowly beside my mom at living room,in front of the television,we watched Hong Kong drama..
After lunch,I drove off to hair salon to have a hair cut..



I'm just had a fringe cut,I did not want to shorten the length of my hair,haha,
how weird am I,I like my long straight hair =P....



Yeah,I have a short fringe now,keep it long again...(:

At night,I went to my uncle's house for a party night,we had a wonderful catering party,BBQ,karaoke,and chit-chatting as well..
Haha,I can't believe that some of my relatives didn't even recognise me,I wonder have I changed so much every year,haha,I am now a young lady (:.....



I've grabbed some mihun,curry chicken,fish ball,vegetables,and braccoli...(:


my dearest cousin....hoooooo (:


BBQ side

P/S: I am on vacation until 7th of February(New semester) (:
P/P/S: Happy holidays and Happy Chinese New Year 2011..

The followings

Edexcel A levels Examination January 2011 is going on for about two weeks,overall I had finished 8 papers and there are 3 more to go,all tough papers are coming next week,which are Biology 4,Chemistry 4,and Physics 4 =)
I really can't wait for the day to come(27th of January 2011),I will finish the exam very soon =)

After exam,firstly I will hang out with one of my closest friend from my high school,Xue Li,on 28th of January...We planned to go for movie and have a lunch,and grab some new clothes for Chinese New Year. =) I wanna hunt for a piece of skirt and dress =D
I have a short sleeve blouse....so erm...I will look for a cotton blouse,perhaps I would feel comfortable all over my upper part of body by wearing it =)

On 29th of January,there will be a night party at my youngest uncle's house,they would offer catering for us =) With all my relatives,I feel the warmth of happiness from them =)
and also,that day I will go to shopping with my mother,hmmm,I think I should park my car at Lrt Station and take Lrt and Monorel to there? I never satisfied with the parking fees at Time Square,haha!

On 30th of January,I will go for a hair cut,my hair is too long,but never mind,perhaps I would change a new hairstyle,make it wavy on my ponytail...=) and I am gonna get myself a contact lenses,instead of eye-glasses again...FINALLY I TAKE OFF MY SPECTACLES ! =) As my friends and relatives commented that I would be nicer without a SPEC ! YES,I can't wait for it =)

On 31th of January,Yeah,I am gonna have a HANG OUT with my college friends =)
We 1,2,3,4,5,6......one gang...planned to have a karaoke at RedBox Midvalley,yeah it is a best choice ever,after a long term exam,we should get a wild shout...shout...and shout to relieve our stress,sigh of relief man! =D and thus,karaoke is one of the best choice!

The following days...1st and 2nd of February....hmmm I am gonna prepare for Chinese New Year，buy some new stuffs,clean my desk and room,and decorate my house =)

At the same time,I will gonna have some revisions and prepare and strike for the LAST SEMESTER of A levels =) Blessed with luck! and getting a better results =)
Mun,all the best =)

P/S: Gong Xi Fa Cai....
P/P/S: Live as if you'll die tomorrow =)

The New Year 2011

A new day,new hope,and new life!
I don't know what will happen to me in 2011,I predict it will be more challenging compared to last year,I will soon graduate A level on June this year,and step to University life.
Yeah,there's half year to go for my Pre-U life (Damn,sounds like A level is so tough,haha,yea by the way)

Talking about my University life soon,most probably I will enroll myself to International Medical University (IMU) and doing degree level in Pharmacy which will be taken 4 years! I could sense that a huge responsibility is required for me to study this course,my new challenge is around the corner! =)
Erm,what attracts me to study Pharmacy? Well,because I am caring and having a passionate interest in "medicine" =D and hopefully I could help out in caring patients' drug related needs following medical diagnosis! Currently hospital pharmacist and community pharmacist are my best choices! No,I should choose one! HAHA

Talking about my current state,well I am fine and stronger than SPM year,how to say its like a magic! I often absent myself to school last time just because of slightly sick,flu,and period pains,haha,and always become a costumer to clinic and hospital,had a full medicine meal WOW I can't describe the condition last time but my body was so fragile! Perhaps I was dealing with too many kinds of drugs in 2008 and 2009 so I become interested in MEDICINE? haha what a joke!
My health report in 2010,I never absent to college so yea my body health is well improved =) I took care of my body well,had a balanced meal,but seriously lack of exercise due to burden of studies =( should work out on this from now onwards!
About period pains,well I took care of it and I am glad that I have a healthy period from now on =D
About my nose sensitive,hmmm well nothing to say about it,but I need to take care of the hygiene of surroundings,clean up my room and desk,and make sure that they are DUST free?haha....if not,my nose will out of control =O.....

Well,about my current academic performance,its like a bullshit haha joking,I've to work harder and harder in order to MEET THE ENTRY REQUIREMENT only,
seriously I put a lot of efforts onto my studies and suffer a headache now! >0<....
Shit la,I should not put too much pressure to myself but what to do?
haha,chasing a dream is harder than take care of my body health =_=....
Strive for excellent and blessed with luck to myself!!!

For my friends and family,I am relieved because they live a happy life and in state of safe and healthy but they are extremely busy on their stuffs such as working and studying!
I hope they are always doing well and fine..
This is called....HUMAN LIFE! =_=....

Mun,what are you typing now?
Don't sad,please CHEER!
Your bright future is on your hands!
LET'S MAKE IT COME TRUE!!!!! =)

P/S: BLESSED WITH LUCK,HAPPINESS,AND SUCCESS in 2011

The description of impressions before 2011

"The bad new is time flies,the good news is you're the pilot"..Well,we have to wave our hands and say goodbye to year 2010,just one more day left...Currently I am pushing myself hard for the preparation of Edexcel A levels Examination on January soon! Anyway,all the best to myself and all of my friends who will be sitting for the examination....Success through qualification =).......

Well,throughout the year 2010,I have encountered a lot of challenges,successes,failures,the moments of happiness and sadness,easy and difficult situations,and suffering periods...

Start of with January 2010-June 2010,
I had finished SPM on 2009 and planned to apply for A levels course which will be taken one and a half year,since I will be working in medical field for my future..I had went through several colleges and universities but finally ended up with METHODIST COLLEGE KUALA LUMPUR( I was recommended and suggested by my friend )
Wow,my first impression for that college were simple and rough but it underwent renovation progress that time,haha,and now my college looks much better compared to last time....renewed! =D.....
I have registered four subjects for A levels..Mathematics,Biology,Chemistry,and Physics...and I found it harder and tougher than SPM level,wow what the challenges man!...chill!!!!
I took part in college events such as orientation camp,orientation Ball Night,Treasure Hunt,and much more,and I become the member of Pre-U society,Pre-medical society and Editorial Board of reporting department....
Moreover,I get to know a sum of friends from my college...They are Joyce Tan,Zoe Eee,Yee Shan,Ngar Mun,Kiet Eie,Yu Jin,Kim,Yong Yi,and much more and I feel lazy to list out here hehe....We had fun times together,eat,laugh,and play all around =D...They are my best mates ever,Thank you and I love you guys =)......
I have a packed schedule,6 hours and more for the lectures every weekday =)...A tonne of assignments and burden of studies and exams
and it turns me out to be more responsibility,patience,respect,smart,and so on....
=)
Well,my results still maintained a moderate level,and hopefully to be better by next time =)....

July 2010-December 2010
As usual,I drove to college for classes..Study and focus on exam....and I have taken part in BBQ Night on July in college and Intercohort Games on August....
I had so much fun in college and I feel proud to be a student there =)....

Now focus on the important point,I've encountered with a guy,Lee Seng Tai,we were in love with each other..The first day we were in the relationship was on "5th of September 2010"...=')...This guy...He has a big dream...I love his smiley face,I love his voice,I love his PERSON and his HEART!
I feel fortune to have him in my life actually,and I appreciate his caring and love for me,and I slowly fall in love deeply to him,and I take this relationship seriously,and I've no regret =')...Unfortunately,after 3 months sharp,is it god fooling with us? Is it my fault? Or is it his fault? Or is it not our fault??????
Maybe it is my fault,caused by me >.<.....
Maybe I asked something that trigger his sensitivity,and I apologized sincerely to him,I was forgiven but the case went badly until he wanted for the break-up ! ='(....>.<....Until now,I still don't know what is the main problem!!!!
Anyway,miracle does happen,let's time calm us down,and rebuild the fate again?
Let's nature takes its course!

Good luck to my A levels Exam soon!

P/S: Happy New Year!

Where am I ?

It's been a few weeks and I did not update my blog,Ummmm.....
What should I tell here,something was weighing on my mind for so long,and I have so many things on my mind,I can feel the trouble coming up,awaken to new challenges,tremendously exciting?PROBABLY NO!and I can see the bad things arising!

Let's make it clearly,I am now facing two main problems,which are studies and relationship!
Stresses from those subjects,yes of course I could manage it well without other problems arising!
At the same time I've had a quarrel with him..Until now,I don't know why,even I don't understand,it was a small matter! Can you understand? Can you gimme the answer? Why you wanted to make a wildly exaggerated responses and decision? I could understand your feeling,but could you understand my feeling? D'=....Right,I have a very tolerant towards our relationship,but the pain was almost more than I could bear,I couldn't bear the thought of losing YOU,do you know my endurance has THE LIMITATION too?My brain will explode sooner or later..You're still CONSIDERING while I am waiting your answer for so long with greatest pressure on my mind and greater heartbeats per minute!!!!Can you think wisely throughout this problem? I've so many questions to ask you,but I don't dare to ask as if I trigger your sensitivity again?
How will you know I am hurt,if you cannot see my PAIN?
Well,it is the truth again that I love you very much,if not,I wouldn't bear the pain until now!!...and I will not let you go =')....and I will not give up on US,and I believe on us,as you said to me before!=) CHEER!
From now onwards,I will not rush on emotion to you,please don't worry,but can I have the authority to release my anger,sadness,and stress into my blog? Please grant me some personal freedom at here,thanks!


Next month I'll be sitting for Edexcel A-levels Examination,wish me luck,
and I will try my best to score well,as much as I could.....
I will strive for excellent in the present time,as I am still alive!

Last but not least,I would like to thank my friends who comforted and supported me when I am down and depressed,and ultra caring from my parents,without you all,I will not stand up myself again!


P/S: Dear bloggies,well,I am sorry for releasing my sadness and stress at here again!
I hope no one will read this post....

................Please don't read........................

kahmun

The Critical Moment II

Well,how time flies again! I've already finished two semesters in A levels course,there is only 1 semester left,honestly I really can't wait for the graduation day,ha ha!....
Oh wait,let's settle and try out my best shot in the coming Edexcel A level Examination first,it should be my second time sitting for the international exam....From my information,this exam is only held on every January/February and May/June at afternoon and night time in Malaysia,between 2pm-8pm...For my experience,most of the papers held at night time,6.30pm-8pm,It is so disappointment that I couldn't watch the sunset during exam time,but I could sense the sunset when I was doing the exam questions! =)

What should I do after finished A levels?
I still got at least 4 years for undergraduate course man!.....and I would like to move on postgraduate course if possible which might take up 2 years+.....
This is a matter of the utmost importance,I have been reconsidered this matter again and again!
There are plenty of factors that I should consider before settling on a course,my ambition,favourite subjects,career path,skills and talents,personality,preference,duration of the course,and the entry requirements!
I got a lot of preferences so that's why I am so interested in learning and eager to study all the matters and antimatters around!
Ha....and I have two pathways!
Pharmacy is my first choice,and it covers core areas of drugs,the effects and dispensing of drugs on human beings/patients....I am ready to lend my helping hands in medical field =)...
My back-up plans are medical imaging,radiotherapy,and physiotherapy....
Well,let's consider again....

P/S: moving forward,I am alright =)

The Critical Moment

Well,its been one week and more I did not update my post,my trial results came as a big blow!! Even I could not believe on it too,I think of I should change my method of study as fast as possible,it is still early,there are two months left before the International Exam,come on girl!!!!!!!!You can do it!!!!!
As the taskmaster of the Zodiac says ,and Saturn commands that I've to get to work and WORK HARD,discipline and responsibility are important to this Planet,yet if we're eager to conquer the world,that's okay,too! Yes,I strongly agree with it!

NO PAIN NO GAIN,sometime I think,is this quote successes to motivate and encourage all the people to work hard before the greatest achievement is obtained? Is this quote ensures that if people tend to SACRIFICE or work hard in something,the dreams will be achieved and come true??? Well,is a NOPE for someone,for sure I am included!! I could feel the BURN from my brain,or even my soul,my brain is broke out,my muscles are ran out of energy! Because I've to accept that GOT PAIN NO GAIN is encountering me in this year,I had never encountered such resistance and difficulties before!!!I know I should be STRONGER,be stabled,and be determined to face the problem,I have confidence,I have ability,I have patience! Yes,I have everything,but I am lost in direction! ='(.....Well,with my will power,I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!
Once again,come on! =)....

Today onwards,I planned to lock up myself in my bedroom,until the exam is coming,I sat on my neat desk quietly,I looked at my bookshelf with all the recessed book,my stationery,a stack of files and papers,a sheaf of Double A papers and A4 papers,my make-up stuffs =),and my Yamaha flute,I smiled with them =)

It's time to work hard with all my energies and powers!!!!!!!

Sun,shines on ME!!!!!!!

P/S : PLEASE,GOD,GIVE ME STRENGTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am ready at all TIME!

Recent Update

Hmmmmm,I was feeling too lazy to do anything,lazy to move,lazy to eat,lazy to drink,lazy to read,and lazy to study,totally lazy man!
After trial exam,most of time I am having some sorts of activities for relaxation such as on-lining,listening to musics,watching TV,and day-dreaming ONLY,what's wrong with me? That's not my daily routine! Shit Mun! Where is your spirits in everything? Huh,huh,and huh! >.<
Yup,this is reconcilable with common sense!!After exam,all students will be in a cheerful frame of mind,so abnormalities of attitude is not with me,yeah yeah! =D

Today,is not a weekend,is a weekday,but is my college holiday..Unfortunately,I felt dizzy and unwell this morning,and I missed the outing with my college mates,we were planning to go to Skytrex at Shah Alam to cycle! Then I sent a text message and apologized to them,ha ha,too bad! I am waiting for next outing,check it out! =D
At afternoon,I was cleaning my desk and re-arranging my books on the book shelf,hmmm
It looks clean and tidy now...WEEEE X)

Please do not forget that there will be one more exam again on 18th of November,it's Malaysian Studies,which is the craziest subject in the world,arrrrghhh.....All the notes that given by my Malaysian Studies' lecturer called up memories of my SPM year,the lousiest subject for me was the History,previously I almost got failure on this subject,I didn't know why but I kept on working hard to this subject because I knew that it was not too late,even I took the history textbook to toilet and read it up when I was making my business??!!Furthermore,I stuck the notes onto the bathroom's wall when I was bathing??!!Oh my goodness,I have a sudden feel that I am a kind of studying frenzy person! Should I apply this attitude in my studies right now? Ha ha! For sure it is useful,but it requires plenty of energy and time! YEA!

P/S: Failure chilled the hopes? But I AM NOT =)
P/P/S: Happy Deepavali and Happy Holiday

*fireworks*
Cheersssss =D

Busy

A ton of homework,assignments,reports,projects,folio,tests are 'dating' with me this recently,
so I've no spare time for my relaxation,LOL...
No time to watch TV,
No time to read a storybook,
No time to read newspapers,
No time to loiter at shopping mall,
No time to type my ''blog'',LOL.....


P/S: Cheer up,and I will be stronger =)

It is annoying

It is annoying that there are so many ASSIGNMENTS,REPORTS,AND 'SMALL TESTS' this recently....
DAMN IT,especially to the MATHS---MECHANICS 1 = PHYSICS + MATHS,
ERRRKKK....The 'stink' of vomit reached me instantly,
there are questions more than 50 per chapter,
and some of the questions were extremely hard,even harder than SPM PHYSICS and ADDMATHS,LOLX.....
I expend all my energy on such assignments EVERY DAY,D;
In addition,we were ordered to hand in all the exercises of one chapter in one week's duration,
AIYO MAMA.....
I still got other things to do lah.......BIO CHEM PHY......

CRY CRY CRY.......

P/S: No HW,can do revision. Got HW,cannot do revision!...@.@!

Free from exam

Whee..x) After 8pm today,exams are over,
I had a feeling of release,yeah...Back to normal!!!
But,it was just first semester!!!....
There are so many assignments,revisions,exams will be coming soon,
ha ha,don't think about it first,
enjoying my semester break right now,
hooooray.......=D.......

What is my plan during semester break?
errmmm....
I will update to my blog very soon^^

P/S: Happy holidays^_^