The beginning of 2013

I hate the weather now! As my friend said, the weather is never good. The sun seems much brighter than usual, high temperature, very hot indeed! I got a slight fever last week. I thought I would have fully recovered but my body still feeling hot inside, sweat a lot, oh my goodness. All medicines are useless to me now. People, drink plenty of water then.

I am now officially in year 2 semester 2 for my degree. So far, I do well in my studies, my CGPA is around 3.3, it is moderate though. Anyway, knowledge is always important than the pointer, understanding the lesson is far more better than studying for the sake of scoring high on the examination. My course mates are awesome, they are friendly and kind, some of them are intelligent and helpful, yet some of them are over-active and have a great sense of humor. And I am leading a good and peaceful life. :)

Guess what, next semester I might start my year 3 if everything goes well. I really can't wait for my final graduation in 2015. Another thing that makes me can't wait for is internship. I am gonna have my internship in this coming September, the duration is about 4 months. That would be a very important experience to me throughout the end of this year. I wish I could gain a lot of knowledge in my field before graduation.

Let's talk about my routine and hobbies, my class starts at 9.30 in the morning for every Tuesday and Thursday, ends late in the afternoon. Whereas the lab session starts at 8 in the morning for every Wednesday. I miss those days where I cycle around my house, and I wished to get a mountain bike in the future, I miss cycling. The last time I went bowling was in November last year, lol I feel relief, happier, and lighter in my mind once I play bowling. Next week I am going to a gym, and hopefully it can let go of my stress.

Oh,

Chinese New Year is around the corner, it is one of my favorite festival of the year, I like the holiday, I like the atmosphere of being noisy with my family, friends, and relatives, I like the firework fires sound, I like the reunion dinner, red envelope :) which I really can't wait for... ^^

I am going to turn 21 this year, dear god, please bless me with a better life, I'll keep improving myself.

:)

kahmun.

Draft :)

Hey peeps, it's been few months :) I miss those moments that I kept updating my news to you guys, since high school, and right now I am studying in Uni. :)

However, my second semester is going to end once the final exam is finished. And I really can't wait to post something funny up here. :)

There are still 3 years more until I graduate. :)

One thing I really can't wait is the time when I turn 20 soon....hahas!

I hope everything is going well. :)

Aha, see you soon.

kahmun. :)

Chinese new year eve

Hey peeps, it's been a while I was off to busy with my studies, it's tiring and exciting, yet challenging role. I am in holiday now for about 5 days, and I'll gonna school again right by next Thursday!

In these few weeks, all of the lessons are going smoothly, yeah, and I am pleased with my studying, I do really learn a lot, it's not only about gaining knowledge, but how to work well in a team to make a project comes successfully. Yet, maths is getting harder and harder! Hahas! Fun though! (: Well, I'll update again in details to you guys about my studying after Chinese New Year. (:

Many people are going back to their hometowns for this festival - celebrating Chinese New Year, which I am the one too. But I am staying in KL ( my hometown ) to celebrate the festival and enjoy the smooth journey to my relatives' houses. I think the city is now emptying. Aha! (:

Alright, for my wishes on Chinese New Year, I am hereby wishing all my beloved friends and family a year of peace. Everything will go fine and smoothly. That's......happy dragon year, people. (:

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Today is rainy day, I don't feel like waking up though. I went to Giant at Taman Connaught with daddy, and he said he wants to buy some carbonated drink ! ! ! Oh my, I know what he wanted to buy - 100 plus ( his favourite ) xD

See.....I guess right! By the way coca-cola is not his drink. HAHAHA!

What about mine?

Aha, my Ice-lemon-tea! wooohoooo.....Time to drink!

And.....A large reunion dinner with my family! Happy Chinese New Year ahead (:

kahmun (:

Time begins

To 2012 : I am going to start you off with my new semester, I am in year 1 semester 2, yeah, I have gone back to University today, get my time-table double checked, met up my friends, chit-chatting, but.......the lecturer didn't come today! =O Ha, we've been waiting for the lecturer like a BOSS!

It's my hand drawing's classroom (:

Last night I went to The Mines, surprisingly, I bought three shirts, a piece of skirt, a pair of boots with fur, a rubber band, and a necklace. =D Well, the mission is passed, I am fully prepared for the Chinese New Year which is around the corner, I can't wait for the day to come, it's time to dress up nicely! =D

Good day, people (:

kahmun

The reflections of 2011

How time flies, tomorrow is a brand new day, it's not more than 24 hours to go and year 2012 is going to replace with year 2011.

In 2011, there are a lot of ups and downs, as I trudged up the hill, laden with supplies. It was a tiring walk although I walked slowly the last day to 2012, 365 days are completed ! Every step was heavy as it required a huge amount of strength and wills.

The first 6 months were stressful and troubled.

"I was out of control as I fell into a deep hole in the ground from which people obtain water, the sides of wells are covered with barbed brick and there was a covering at the top of the well. I.......almost get drowned at the well".

The world is messed up.......messed up.......as I felt like doomsday is approaching me...

I did feel helpless to overcome the stressful and miserable life. Exam was damn hard and finally I managed to do it well, and I graduated my pre-U life. I felt everything was a hardship for me. Man-made factor? Environment factor? Think too much?

In half of the year, life has taught me a lot, do not let the sadness of your past or the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present, and there's a solution in every problem. Build a bridge of hope on a sea of despair! (:

Once I started my Uni life in September, only I realized that there are actually the same, burden doubles up, lessons are double harder, people are kinda fake, so I'd rather be thankful of my life no matter what the situation is...

I learn that life is a book.

P/S: Happy 2012, people. (:

kahmun

Wishlist

Yeah, my hair is getting longer and longer again, before that I got a hair cut for 2 inches off, and it's looking moisturized and nourished after the hair treatment , but still not long though, below my breast level. Hmmmm, why must we get a hair cut? There's no way for stopping the hair to grow, right? How good if we could maintain the length of hair we wanted.

Hmmm, my parents are busying in their business, and I wasn't allowed to go out frequently because I am still on the road to recovery ( completely ) , I must get wrapped up warmly for at least one month, especially in a cold weather! Yeah, I already told myself that I must take care of myself, on the progress, soon I will be the healthier one, as usual, playing all over the world. =D

New year is around the corner...

In 2012 :

- Get good results in every exam.

- Get my hair curled =D

- Get a pair of boots with fur

- Have my nose allergy completely cured

- Stay Healthy (:

- Partying with friends! =D

- Ride a bicycle ( At the lake garden, Bandar Tun Razak )

- Be happy and cheered every day! (:

- Peacefully

That's my wishlist...

May my wishes be fulfilled......

P/S: Happy New Year 2012, people.....(:

Kahmun

The end of the end of the year

Months are passing so quickly, my holiday is going to end soon, that means I have to endure going back to University for another strive. A two month break is definitely enough for me, two months off-to-relax, oops I am not totally relaxed, indeed I spend my holiday thinking about my future and doing research. OH NO! I have a mixed feeling upon knowing my holiday is going to end, I am such a weirdo!

OH YES, one of the best thing I've done is by making my room looks immaculate, I keep my bed and desk spotless, yeah, so that my allergy reaction wouldn't be so terrible!

OH NO, the weather is changing frequently and unexpectedly, I bet there will be a lot of people get sick more often in such a bad weather! Malaysia's temperature can fluctuate by as much as 10 degrees which is from 25-35 celcius! So I've been suffering from cold & severe flu , I've changed 1 doctor and only I could get relief, phew!!!!! I was told that I've got 猪毛丹 ( a kind of severe cold ) , and I felt like vomiting and fatigue at all time, and also headache, my body felt like it's freezing though! :O Due to that ill so I couldn't attend for 2 outings with my college mates! But now I've fully recovered! What the sick holiday! Phui !

I am so fragile I know ! I must take care of myself more! :D

P/S: I'm always with me! (:

To be continued......

kahmun

Excel at life

People, I have a piece of good news, that I've completely walked out from depression/panic/anxiety, eh i think it's partially only, I will work out with myself, I know I CAN DO IT! I have confidence to myself. Blessed of luck and passion!

Few days ago, I was browsing for books and references from android market in my phone, and I had discovered a title called "stop panic and anxiety" , NO HARM IN CURIOSITY , I downloaded it and read.

The resource is separated into four parts which are info, audio, dairy, and articles.

Firstly I read the introduction , followed by audio and articles.

It says to learn to control panic and anxiety you must understand it, the next step is training and learning the methods to physically calm your body, the audio in that application will help you learn, the relaxation teaches you calming skills, and it really worked out! (:

Next, it's thinking. Certain thinking styles contribute to panic and anxiety, learn how to change this thinking by using the anxiety dairy. It helps you to determine ways to challenge the thinking, once you have done that, it's important to read the challenges frequently until they automatically come to mind to replace the anxious thinking.

Here is the link about this application:

http://www.excelatlife.com/

I hope people who are having panic and anxiety could get rid of it in their life.

kahmun.

The struggle

I broke my promise, I cried again in the middle of night. The past few months I even made a promise for not shedding a tear anymore, from that time onward. My nose burns and blocks, and my heart hurts when I start to cry, I don't want this to be happened so I've made a promise to myself. I don't feel right today! ):

Dear self, I am extremely sorry!

I've been crying for 6 months + and I really have no idea! It's not hard to recall how it feels, it indeed turns me into a horrible person. ): Crying seems becoming a part of my life. Well, take it easy then!

Last year from today - 5/12.

It's freezing today, a cloudy and windy day often reminds me how that incident has been gone through. From love to hurts, from hurts to hatred, and from hatred to stranger. What my friends told me was right, the person who you care the most is the one who hurts you the most. Dare to try, people?

Sometimes I feel envious of those who are loving each other no matter in what condition! Does trust exist in the world? Does love exist in the world? I already lost trust in everyone...

P/S: I am sorry for those sensitive words...

Perfect?

We had a great outing today, after the heavy rain yesterday I think everybody was happy to be out, I woke up early this morning, I realized that I was actually suffered badly with insomnia, I woke up in the middle of the night, my head was lowering to my left shoulder and my neck hurts.

Well, after the wash-up, I was heading to "pasar" where the house's resident used to have breakfast or get some fresh meats and veges, I've ordered a plate of mee and ate it very slowly, I was actually thinking of something...

Crossed the bridge...I looked at him, the motorcyclist looked back at me... ( you aren't a snatch theft ) LOL!

Walked to LRT station, I sweated all over my body then.

Yes - I met him, the beloved brother - st :D

This time we were going to karaoke at Greenbox - sg. wang plaza, from 1pm-4pm. After the renovation, I've seen everything is changed, the environment, design, and system seems very well improved. I prefer the sound effect and also the touch screen navigation for selecting the song. :D Sadly, the foods and beverages have becoming lousier than last time. Oops =O

Before karaoke, I tagged along with him to restaurant wan tan mee, I know there's another branch at Kuchai Lama , it tasted not very delicious to me last time when I was eating the wan tan mee. But he said he misses "wan tan mee" very much so I didn't think to ruin his appetite! xD

To be franked, I felt completely worn out after the karaoke, yet we had so much fun and joys. (:

We were heading to Time Square after that...

Here come for roaming and strolling around the Time Square! Grabbed a piece of christmas card, thought of giving it to my friend. (:

We left the place at 6 o' clock!

I really feel very cheerful today, I guess he is...too. (: Thanks for lending me your ears to pour out all the things.

Ya, I hope to see him again. (:

Take care.

P/S: Happy mun. :D

Here am I

I feel like pouring out something in here, its about the complicated feeling after I've been kept hidden for some time....

The only way is to bury my feelings and emotions under the corner of my heart...

Wave after wave of pent-up emotion, and the countless of unexpected and unexplained thoughts and moods were making my mind out of control, but I don't have the attempt of ending my life. I don't feel right to share this kind of emotion to the people around me, and also my dearest family. I really feel shame on my behaviour, secret, thought, and also the way I treat it.

My throat feels very tight....it's like something is strangling or tie up your neck tightly until you feel breathless and choked. I dislike this kind of condition when I am out of control. I am in anxiety huh?

I don't know why I still could make the people around me happily and cheerful instead of leading them to the sadness. Perhaps I am good in hiding my actual feelings. Huh.

The stresses of life and moving on, they are actually a hardship to me now. ):

When I think about......December.

Sigh.

Memories tinged with sadness - 5/12 (':

kahmun.

Alone in the hollow brightness

Please help! I am stuck in a dilemma, neither in studies nor in career, but to subdue the pain of migraine. I still remember the first time I had migraine when I was in form 3. It is actually a common type of headache yet it's very painful and annoying to me.

I feel a sense of emptiness this recently, I feel like avoiding this feeling but I discovered that its the feeling of lack or something missing that makes me feel uncomfortable in my life? I crave for chocolate, ice-cream, and cheese but they do not appear at my sight. I yearn for a completely healthy mind and body but the painful headache/migraine run on my mind, same goes to my phobia, I hate you all. ): Whenever I need you, but where are you? )':

To be continued......

Kahmun.

The life and feelings

I don't know why, I've been feeling very down and depressed , it started about 2 weeks ago until now. I thought having depression or feeling down from time to time is a very normal part of our life, but the feeling isn't right to me because I had a thought of don't wanna live anymore, SHIT? Please don't tell me on how to survive. =/ FOREVER ALONE!

Damn, the phobia has really made me into a horrible person, I hate it? ): I can't sleep, I've been suffering from insomnia, I am really suffering you know! You've been disappeared yourself for almost 2 months and why you're turning back to attack me again? )': SOB!

So, it ended up with fever, caught a cold, sore throat, coughing and whatsover! )':

Sorry for telling that. ):

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Yesterday I went to the Sunny Beach Cafe where I used to be on lunch with my schoolmates last time, it's been 2 years since I've been there, so I was paying my first visit right after I've left my high school. Those fun and joys with my schoolmates had made an indelible vivid memories on my mind. It's impossible to forget such memorable moment in my life. (:

This time, I tagged along with Vinze - my high school and also my University senior. (:

Well, the quality of food and beverages still remains good though, and it still remains a very popular restaurant to students, workers, and other customers. Maybe it's the location, good atmosphere, and decorations that people enjoy. (:

The menu.
A plate of pasta with spicy sauce.
A plate of pasta with tomato sauce.
A bowl of mushroom soup.
A glass of mint shake.

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On 2nd of November, I went to Maluri Jusco with my parents. No idea, they were making promotions and discounts in J-card Member Day. I've bought 3 file holders and inner wears with 50-70% discounts. No wonder people were thirsting for hunting piece!

Well, I had a cup of signature hot chocolate at Starbucks.

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On 4th of November, we went to Paragon Thai Village for dinner.

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This is 南瓜算盘子。Errrr..... =9

P/S: Please don't remind me on how to survive.

Joys and fun

The picture is taken from 10th floor at Berjaya Time Square! LAUGH OUT LOUD! =D
The picture is taken from 10th floor at Berjaya Time Square! LAUGH OUT LOUD! =D
My favourite cookies- Famous Amos ' s chocolate chip cookies! =9 DROOLED OVER THE FOOD. =9
It's the best recommended to you all- vegetable pizza. There were brocolli, bell peppers, carrots, and also cheese on top! =9
A plate of mushroom mee with a big cabbage, and also abalone slices!
"Tou fu hua" - beancurd jelly with sugar syrup, it is one of the popular chinese dessert eaten hot or cold. Well, it warmed my stomach especially when there was raining outside. (:

Profound thought

Yeah, since I am on holiday, I have completely cleaned my room , by getting a piece of wet cloth to wipe down my dusty desk, bookshelf, and drawer. To be frank, they were really full of dust, its been two months since I didn't clean them. Also, I changed my bed sheet, rearranged my paper works and books, and mopped the floor. Well, I bet all of you prefer things to be cleaned, right?

This week I will be spending my time with my friends and also family, at last I've a few days of deep relaxation. It's better to spend time in resting and enjoying myself as much as possible before a new chapter of life begins. I feel like playing bowling, archery, rock climbing, and... my favourite sport - cycling. Right, I've missed my bike so much. Thought of buying a new bike after a period of time then. =)

I am going to get a cell phone. Nope, its a smartphone, since I've some extra savings. Besides, I planned to work part-time start from next month onward. Hopefully I could learn something new from it. It's wise to begin with a plan! (: Dear self, all the best.

I will be starting the second semester on January 2012. There will be much more challenges later on, for sure. It's never too late to start off with a positive thinking. Let's beat it calmly! (:

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Some thoughts...some memories...some sadness...they will be last forever in my heart, and also in my mind too. If you still remember what was happening for the past year, I've been struggling for almost a year, it isn't easy at all, I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles. Yet, I have becoming stronger and stronger! It goes successfully! (:

You have taught me a valuable lesson...you've been said: " the society teaches me to be harsh, I give you time but please don't take it for granted. " I finally realized that what were you meant to be.

If I kept trying my best to provide value and cares for you, you would do things that showed that you didn't completely recognise about my carings, you would leave me wondering what you were thinking about. Why are you not recognizing the good intent I had in mind?

If I am deciding to give you up, am I the person to be blamed? I think you should know, who is the one doesn't even cherish the one who loves you very much.

Sorry that I loved you. (:

Thank you!

By: kahmun (:

Life is like riding a bicycle

Hey, peeps. It's been one month since I didn't update to you guys. I can't describe how packed is my lectures' time table and also my own timetable. Well, I've finished the first semester and right now I have 2 months holidays to take breath and chill out somewhere. Also, I become more familiar with my new studying environment, and I adapted quickly to it. Moreover, I have got a lot of new friends who are from different countries and life-styles, and also the knowledge and experiences I got from the course, and now my mind becomes a lil bit wider and large. Yet, it is stronger! (:

And yeah, I've just finished my exam today! Hopefully the results would turn out to be pretty good. (:

In my first semester's subject- Circuit Theory I. I have learned on how to construct a simple circuit with a breadboard. In addition, I have studied different types of theories of circuit in order to calculate the voltage, current, resistance, and so on.

That was my lab project with DC power supply from the lab. Tested by a LED.

That was my assignment. Battery is replaced with the DC power supply, tested by a LED.

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On 13th of October 2011. That day was my born-day and turned out to be 19 years old girl! Also, I was very surprised and touched when my friends brought in a chocolate cake into the classroom once the tutorial is being dismissed. They sang me a birthday song as well, and took a lot of pictures. I never expected such a great birthday party they have arranged for me, although it wasn't very grandly, but full of passionate and kindness. I would very much appreciate it.

My friends and I.

That was the chocolate cake they bought for me.

A birthday surprise from my parents, they have bought me a white chocolate cake with fruits on top. The cake is called "Fruits Garden". WOW, I love it. It tasted very delicious to me as well. Thanks daddy and mommy. (:

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In the end of September, I went to The Mines to relax myself, I enjoyed wandering around the shopping mall and looking at the people...the crowd...(:

And...I've tried something new! CREAMY MUSHROOM SOUP WITH BREAD BOWL! =9

At....the espresSOUP. Oops, I am not trying to promote the small cafe. HAHA!

P/S: Life goes on! (:

Study life (I)

Day by day, life is getting busy, in work place or study place. Indeed, life is becoming more and more challenging.

I really have no idea about how fast the lesson is flowing. I am doing short semester which is until the end of October this year. I have got the exam time table for the final exam today, it has shocked me a little bit but what can I do is try to catch up all the lessons within one month. It's extremely rushed, and I study in a very fast pace.

Calculus & Geometry II isn't an easy subject, even if you're good in maths too. It does require a very hard work and a strong will to learn and study. I will just endeavour to try my best. That's all.

Lecture has taught me a lesson between studying for the sake of passing the examinations and studying for the sake of life. If you keep memorizing the topic just because of the examinations, then you wouldn't gain the knowledge as what you have learned. It's better to learn and gain the knowledge in order to apply the gained knowledge both at academic institutions and in a modern society.

I am story to bore you with my story...

Besides, I have got to know some new friends from there. They are awesome and smart enough. Yet, they are friendly too. I am glad to know them , and hopefully a good friendship will be developed as soon as possible.

Instead, lecturers are experienced and dedicated with years of teaching, I like them ! (:

P/S: To be continued...

The new study place

It's been one week I studied at UCSI University North Wing, whereas the South Wing is the headquarter of UCSI.

I think I should learn how to adapt to a new study place immediately, it seemed very strange the first time I met them -- my coursemates. Besides, in engineering and architecture courses, there are a lot of international friends came to Malaysia for studying, this is what I have noticed in the past few days. Through conversation, they come from Indonesia, Myanmar, Iraq, and much more. Indeed, we have different family backgrounds, cultural, languages, lifestyles, and so on. (:

I drive to University every morning, the parking fees are RM 3 in the first 3 hours, and RM 4 after 3 hours. That's very costly to me.

I take 2 subjects in this semester, because every September we are compulsory to take a short semester which is until the end of October. So, we would have 2 months of holidays on November and December.

The first subject is Calculus and Geometry II, its kinda harder than A levels Math, we solve 3D integration. This shouldn't be a problem to me since last time I was practiced to do maths until thrown up? xD The second subject is circuit theory, its more in physics, basic concept must be strong in order to proceed to the hardest topics. Moreover, we were assigned to do a group assignment and lab project. Next month we will have presentation, midterm, and final exam. (:

Well, I will be very busy soon. (:

It's September again

Let me entice you with some news. I will be getting my degree by next Monday, I've just fully recovered from removing the blood clots in my uterus, and I do feel much more better by tuning up my body with Chinese medicine. I prefer Chinese Medicine the most, this is because it's all made from natural ingredient. My holidays are going to end soon, it is a torture of doing a lot of assignments and prepare for examination again, as what I did in my A level. (:

*Stopping my crap*

I've got a conditional letter of offer from UCSI University as shown as below. I will be doing B.Eng (Hons) in Mechatronic Engineering programme. People think I am crazy, and commented this degree isn't easily at all, even some of them said I am the special one. Well, I chose it according to my Pre-U results, I am interested in every course but I must have to choose one! Besides, I do like Physics very much. (:



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It's a mess when you're going to apply for PTPTN Loan. I am the one who is processing the first step here, and preparing all the documents to be certified. Firstly, I went to "Bank Simpanan Nasional" for buying a PIN number for online application, then I went to CIMB Bank again to open a saving account, and get an ATM Card. You know the staffs took me 2 hours for opening a new saving account, was it too exaggerate? They even skipped my turn and asked me to wait, what the terrible and lousy customer services they've offered me!

Shit, I feel like scolding them so badly. It's okay then, dear self, let's chill! (:

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P/S: Life is going on! (:

Malaysian Independence Day 2011

Hey people, I am just dropping by to say hello. It's Kah Mun again! (:

I am hereby wishing all the Malaysians, Happy Independence Day 2011, and happy holidays to all of you too. It is such a coincidence, this year's Malaysian Independence Day and "Hari Raya" fall nearly on the same day. Normally, the eve of Malaysian Independence Day will be filled with joys and fun, countdown session to the August 31st, and fireworks. On the other hand, there were a lot of performances broadcasted on the television such as flag waving, military presentation, a parade, cultural activities, and so on. (:

It's a holiday again. During lunchtime, my family and I went to the Restaurant Sweet Bean ( "Tong Chi Dao" in cantonese) where is located at "Bandar Baru Sri Petalling". It was my first time eating at there, whereas my parents and brother have been visiting for several times.



You see? What a sweet name for the eatery! It is actually a cafe that serves a wide range of sweet soups and desserts, such as red bean, black sesame, peanut paste, and so on. Furthermore, they do serve a variety of traditional western foods and malaysian foods, such as chicken chop, steak, spaghetti, "nasi minyak", "wan tan mee", curry & "laksa" , and much more. (:





Seriously, interior and exterior designs say a lot about a restaurant. By right, I like the lighting and design of that restaurant. They chose the right lighting levels because different lighting levels set different moods for every customer. Same goes to the painting skills, they colored the walls white which are plain. Last but not least, I like the lamp designs! =D



I ordered a plate of seafood spaghetti with tomato sauce. It wasn't disappointing me at all as the sauce tasted slightly sour, the spaghetti was just smooth and its not too tough, the prawns and cuttlefish were fresh without an unpleasant smell. It was just edible for me.

My parents ordered a plate of "nasi minyak with chicken thigh" ( its kind of nasi lemak) and "nasi lemak" respectively, while my brother ordered a bowl of Thai Curry and Curry Fish Balls. At last, I shared a bowl of black sesame with my mum, whereas daddy and brother shared a bowl of red bean.






My mum would be mad at me by capturing so many pictures! =P

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September is coming. (:

P/S: To be continued...Happy Holidays to you guys! (: