Suffocated...x_X

Logically,
A person is supposed to be suffocated by putting a pillow over his/her face,
or lock inside a room that without any oxygen....
or in a hot situation....
Instead of the others,
take an example of I.....I........I...........
the battle of life is coming to me and I'm here to describe my condition as 'suffocate'....
I have a bad memory to keep and remember all the things that I have been read,
so that I have to take action as fast as possible from now onwards,
furthermore,I have to manage well of my darkness of 'mood and expression'....
I knew that my mood will be alternated between 'happiness and despair'..
Life is looked like that,
We cannot escape from 'happiness and despair',
therefore,we need to be strong and open-minded,

'Gloom and Doom',was stick into my mind,
but I reminded myself,
there is nothing to expect things to go badly,
it's a general feeling of having lost all hope and of PESSIMISM,
so WHAT?
I'm not a worm,I'm a girl,
I can get up, lad, and fight anytime,anywhere,
I need to be determined to build a new life out of the ruins of my future!!